Ok so this week was our first week of clinicals in nursing school and our first week of Body Back round 2.
Monday was a great day we studied and had class - NO STRESS!
Tuesday - NOT so much. We had body back at 5 AM, class from 8-10, and clinical from 11-7. It was probably the most stressed out I have ever been, it was ridiculous.
Today (Wednesday) - Clinical from 7-3 and not as bad as Tuesday but Im still exhausted.
So Tuesday I pretty much had a break down. I expected nursing school to be stressful.....I even expected to cry at times but seriously Tuesday for me was so far beyond stressful. I dont know if it was the fact that it was a new unit with a new teacher or the fact that I had a LOT of things to do during clincial but it was so stressful. I was sucking back the tears all day and when I got home and couldnt spend more than 5 minutes with my baby girl, i just broke. She wanted Mommy to rock her to sleep and I just couldnt. I had way to much to do to prepare for the following clinical day and her cries broke my heart </3 It was a horrible day and I SERIOUSLY considered quitting the nursing program. Sometimes i feel like it just isnt worth the stress and heartache of leaving my baby girl!
BUT of course Wednesday morning I got up and went to clinical......it was a better day.
Day one of Body Back went well.......okay not really. Me & Mandy realized that it took us 8 weeks to get in shape and about 4 weeks to get back out of shape! Our assessments were not impressive! But we are ready to tackle it and get fit again :)
Im praying that next week is a better week (clinically) because MAN, i'm not sure I can really handle another year of this kind of stress!!!
I guess no one said nursing school while doing an exercise program and managing a family/marriage is easy :)
XOXO,
Nat
